Guys, I need to ask your forgiveness.
Week before last, I really dove into the lesson and daily readings. I was convicted about my lack of private time with God, and I challenged you all to think about the time you spent with God. It was an awesome, incredibly convicting and incredibly close time with God.
And then what do I go and do?
I was so confident about my spiritual walk that I went and didn't have one single quiet time until Saturday night, when I finally began to study the lesson. And even then, I didn't find a quiet place.
Believe me guys, by midweek, it began showing, and by the end of the week, I was a Crabby, Irrational, Whiney, Pity-Partying, ***??!?!?!**. (I can't spell it out here.) Thank God for my wonderful husband with his patience and love for me NO MATTER WHAT!
I've asked God's forgiveness for neglecting that which would help me grow closer to Him and fulfill and increase my desire for a stronger, deeper, more truly devoted relationship with Him.
But I also need your forgiveness as a class for not upholding my responsibility to prepare myself to be a class leader. I am committing now to regular quiet times with God, to spend time with Him, study His Word and prepare for class. I commit that to Him and to you.
I'm also asking God to increase my desire for time with Him, as well as for Him to lead me to that which He wants me to study.
I also plan to blog, as God leads, to share what He's teaching me. Please hold me accountable if you haven't heard from me in a while. It may be that He hasn't led me to share, but it also may be that I've fallen behind, and I would appreciate your help and encouragement.
God is doing wonderful things in our class, and Satan is not happy. He is going to look for any opening to cause trouble, and boy did I give him a huge one!
Thank you, guys. I'm so glad and proud to be part of our spiritual community.
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Erin, thank you for your continual transparency. God is using your conviction to in turn, convict me and hold me accountable. It is so comforting to know that others deal with the same issues, frustrations and weaknesses as I do. I blame my neglect of time with Him with lack of time in general. What I need to realize is that if I truly have a desire to spend time with Him, I will make the time. Just like if you neglect time with your spouse, your relationship suffers. So has mine with Him. Again, it is great for each of us as students to know that you guys, as leaders, struggle with your daily walk - that is not so easy for you either. You are a credible teacher and one that we want to hear from when you share your struggles. Thanks, Erin.
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